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Sep. 7th, 2007 at 3:43 AM

some people ask other people what love is

it's so simple i mean i know some people might think that a 15 year old girl might
not know what love is but love can mean so many things

for example:

1:i love u man your the coolest
means they love u as a friend!

2:i love u i never want to lose u
this could mean two things it could mean
they never want to lose u as a friend
or they don't want to lose u as like saying will u marry

know i know u all are saying in your head i this girl sound's like a bitch
right but the truth is i have love so many people in my life i feel
like i can never love again but i can love again because no matter what i go tho
i know some where out there someone is waiting for me.!

i just hope to meet him SOON!

but i can wait for mr right ^_^
as long as i know he's out there for me im happy^_^

i once believed that i found the one guy that will love me
but i was wrong i found out that he was cheating on me-_-:
oh well i said if he doesn't love me it doesn't matter
even know i loved him with my heart i guess he loved someone
els he never said he loved me ever
that's wen i knew wen he wouldn't tell me that he loved me
i knew he wasn't the one i asked myself what the hell is wrong with me -_-"
i mean if i have loved so many people why have i not found the one who really loves me
i don't now i know im young but im the kind of girl that needs to have love in her life
cuss wen i feel loved i feel like i matter to someone and i know that sounds really
stupid but it's true....

anyway i hope your out there my soul mate cuss i need u

Mood: sleepy

pix of hyde

Dec. 13th, 2006 at 4:23 PM

Mood: gloomy

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Nov. 30th, 2006 at 3:04 AM

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Nov. 30th, 2006 at 2:32 AM

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Nov. 29th, 2006 at 11:14 AM

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a dream whare the world ended part 1

Oct. 29th, 2006 at 9:39 AM

part:1
this story is a love story about
a girl who's love's a very sweet and loving boy...

once a pone a time there was this girl she had a mom a dad and two brothers
and she a had a very cool boyfriend he was every thing she wanted she was so happy to find him she felt that she was the luckiest girl ever.....

she loved him with all her heart and she felt that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with him but there was a problem see thay never meet him tho see he lived fare away from her she lived in California
and he lived all the way in Florida.....

see thay loved each other a allot she would call him every night
and he would make her laugh every night but every time thay said
bye two each other she felt like there was something missing wen thay said good night
she felt like saying i love you but she wasn't sure that he would say it back
she was to scared to tell him but she wanted to tell him but she couldn't she loved him with all her heart,
but she wasn't sure how much he loved her?

she thot about him every day and night she lost sleep cuss she stayed up all night thinking
about him see she knew that he was the one but she wasn't sure if he felt that way. she wanted to ask him
but she was scared of the answer that he would give her

and all this time she was trying to tell him but she didn't know how. see she was the kind of girl that
was scared to find out the answer......
she knew she loved him but she was sad cuss she felt like the one she love didn't love her...

she was scared to know how he really felt....?

end of part:1

Mood: giddy

coco you gonna laugh wen you read the stuff about you

Oct. 26th, 2006 at 6:39 PM

well any way let me know what you think about that stuff you'll see how much i really love you....>////<
and i got a pic of you my favorite one^^ any who hope you like my LJ go ahead and come back to read it wen ever you want i wright in it like twice a week or some time every day...^^but come back and read wen every you like.....
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PS TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK....^^

Mood: hungry

whooo

Oct. 16th, 2006 at 5:46 AM

yeah i'm soo like happy my boyfriend says he want to marry me....^^ whooo

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yeah.....i cant wait to get married^^ to him i'll be lavonne zheng^^
that's got a nice ring to it/.......

Mood: cheerful

ME MISSING ME ERIC...^^

Oct. 12th, 2006 at 11:46 AM

just want to say hi.....lol

well today suck's i'm sick and i cant sleep i haven't sleep in like 5day's
i miss my boyfriend yufeng zheng....waaa i feel like crying and then dieing... it hurts cuss i miss him so much...
he's the only guy i have ever realy missed this much....^^" i realy love him so i want to marry him and have his kid's
i love him this is him Image and video hosting by TinyPic

<Style type="text/css" source="http:// i realy do love him so much it hurt's...^^; I KNOW YOU GIRL'S ARE THINKG I'M STOUPID RIGHT..... BUT ME DONT CARE ME LOVE HIM ALOT...^^ AND I ALWAYS WILL just hope he feel's the same.....^^

Location:n't cai
Mood: CUSS ME MISS ERIC

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me missing me eric..^^

hmp

Oct. 9th, 2006 at 12:38 PM

i'm so pisst at my dad he said i can come help him today...and know he's saying i cant....hmp i hate wen he does that.....

Mood: angry

x japan Forever Love

Sep. 26th, 2006 at 12:46 PM

Forever Love
words & music : yoshiki

I can't walk alone anymore
The wind of time is too strong
Ah I thought I had gotten used to
Getting hurt, but now...

Ah Hold me now
My drenched heart
If unchanging love exists
in this ever changing time

Will you hold my heart
Catch my falling tears
It's about to break, All my heart

Forever love Forever dream
Only my overflowing emotions
Violently, painfully, fill in my time
Oh tell me why

All I see is blue in my heart

Will you stay with me
Until the wind passes
They start to flow again, All my tears

Forever love Forever dream
Stay by my side
Hold my heart, trembling at dawn
Oh stay with me

Ah I wish everything would end
Into this endless night
Ah I have nothing to lose
Only you

Forever love Forever dream
Stay by my side
Hold my heart, trembling at dawn

Ah will you stay with me
Until the wind passes
Closer than anyone

Forever love Forever dream
I can't go on any further
Oh tell me why Oh tell me true
Tell me, the meaning of living

Forever love Forever dream
In these overflowing tears
until the shining seasons turn into eternity
Forever love

Mood: calm

x japan Tears

Sep. 26th, 2006 at 12:43 PM

Tears
words & music : yoshiki

Where can I go, now that I've parted from you
I ask to the passed time
I dreamed of journeying on the longest nights
Staring at the foreign sky
I held tightly to my loneliness

I lie my flowing tears upon the wind of time
And feel your ceaseless breath

*Dry your tears with love
Dry your tears with love*
Loneliness, your silent whisper
fills a river of tears through the night
Memory, you never let me cry
and you, you never said good-bye
Sometimes our tears blinded the love
We lost our dreams along the way
But I never thought
you'd trade your soul to the fates, never thought you'd leave me alone

Time through the rain has set me free
Sands of time will keep your memory
Love everlasting fades away
Alive within your beatless heart

(*repeat)

I lie my flowing tears upon the wind of time
And change the endless sadness into a blue rose

(*repeat)

I lie my flowing tears upon the wind of time
And feel your ceaseless breath

(*repeat)x2

If you could have told me everything You would have found what love is
If you could have told me what was on your mind
I would have shown you the way
Someday I'm gonna be older than you
I've never thought beyond that time
I've never imagined the pictures of that life
For now I will try to live for you and for me I will try to live
with love, with dreams and forever with tears

Mood: calm

hide pink spider

Sep. 26th, 2006 at 12:41 PM

PINK SPIDER
words & music : hide

You wrap yourself in needles and threads of lies
A small world You thought it was everything
You hurt anything that comes near
You thought the sky was a square

"this is it... this's all there is, isn't it?",
You said That's a lie too

Wildly decorated your patterns look lonely
The paradise bird unusually came over to talk

"Steal that butterfly's wings and come over here"
"Everything's to your desire on the other side"

PINK SPIDER "I wanna go there"
PINK SPIDER "I wish I had wings..."

Ignoring the captured butterfly's desperate plea
You glare at the sky
"I didn't hurt because I hated,
I didn't have wings
And the sky was too high"

"You should use my wings, SPIDER
You don't know the pain of endless flight
And maybe you'll realize one day,
That you were only flying in the palms of someone else
And even dared to call that freedom."

Couldn't fly with borrowed wings
You fall straight down head first

PINK SPIDER "It's no good"
PINK SPIDER "But I can see the sky..."
PINK SPIDER "It's a failure"
PINK SPIDER "I wish I had wings..."

Beyond that barely visible sky
Birds heading south
"Let's fly once again Cutting down these threads
This time with one's own JET
When that cloud passes..."

PINK SPIDER The sky is calling
PINK SPIDER PINK SPIDER

A pink spider flows across the sky....

Mood: calm

Honey Blade

Sep. 26th, 2006 at 12:40 PM

Honey Blade
words & music : hide

Blooming proud, yet fragile in your dreams
Your pheromone stands out while dreaming in a dream
Even your stoic skin sheds blood
Even a faint bud is spiteful

Look around, Look around into HONEY BLADE.
Let me see, Let me see your HONEY BLADE.
Show me, Show me your HONEY BLADE.
Inside out, Inside out, Make it HONEY BLADE.

Here, right this moment, I break you.

Deep Kiss for a torn and broken angel
Picking them up with your hands and Make Love

What you say, What you say, What you say HONEY BLADE.
Lick it up, Lick it up, Lick me HONEY BLADE.
Bite me, Bite me, Bite me HONEY BLADE.
Makin' love, Make it what? Make it HONEY BLADE.
Continuing to sleep inside me
Taking in the world's envy in

Why don't you sleep in my hand baby?
Why don't you dance in my mind baby?
Why don't you smile for me?
Please, Please, Please don't let me go.

When I wake up, you are nowhere to be seen
All that's left is a cattleya and a letter.
That day, that time, that place, just like that, I should've, I should've
I should've, I should've, I should've, I should've Broken you completely

Wanna see, wanna see, my HONEY BLADE
Don't go way, don't go way my HONEY BLADE
I look around, look around you HONEY BLADE
Makin' love, makin' love, make you HONEY BLADE

Now all I do is stare at a picture of you
A cold gun to my head
And pull the trigger
Now

Good-bye sweet my HONEY BLADE
Sweet sweet my HONEY BLADE
Good-bye sweet my HONEY BLADE
Sweet sweet my HONEY BLADE
Good-bye sweet my HONEY BLADE
See you born again

ever free

Sep. 26th, 2006 at 12:28 PM

ever free
words & music : hide

Let me, let me free. Let me out.

I lost the feeling of falling in love
so I asked someone
And I said with a sigh
"How much is love?"

I forgot the season of dreaming dreams
So I asked that person
And you said with a smile
"Can you eat dreams?"

As I was staring at the passing days
The color faded SUNNY DAYS

The disappearing first melody
where did I lose them?

Your dreams that were called random
The continuation of it is still in your heart, trembling
ever free Your story about to crumble down
if you could picture it, can you see it DReam?

ever free free to where? ever free

Like a broken sun
the shattered days too

The disappearing first memories
Where do they wan to go?

Your wings of freedom that were called random
are still closed and sleeping
ever free Through this night
and If you awake can you fly to FRee?

ever free free to where? ever free

FU FU ever free.... FU FU ever free....
FU FU ever free....
FU FU ever free.... in your sight.

FU FU ever free.... FU FU ever free.... FU FU ever free.... FU FU ever free.... in your sight.

Mood: calm

hide beauty & stupid

Sep. 26th, 2006 at 12:09 PM

Beauty & Stupid
words & music : hide

In a motion that'll make you faint
If you sell your soul love becomes a nothing
Even if you count the times you shake your hips
You just can't be serious Ai ai
The way you want it is a sixty-nine
No, don't is an OK sign
If it's a true love then it's a fake
If the chesnut flowers bloom then Bye bye bye bye
You make me love love
I give you my gun gun
If the two were left anonymous
maybe they would've known eachother better

Ai ai ai ai I just wanna make love
But ai ai ai ai I don't wanna fall in love

This and that, it all gets messed up
And before you know it, it gets like that
If you were dozing off in the white valley
Somewhere in your heart is aching aching, Shakin' Shakin
You play it pretty cool but
your heart is still kinda surreal
You get caught easily
in a sweet trap you could've just avoided Ah ah ah
Is this love potion?
You've got love machine gun
Your pickup line is a dynamite smile
covering your tears

Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha
( Baby love you, Love you like an animal)
Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha A-ha-ha A-ha-ha
A-ha-ha A-ha-ha

Ai ai ai ai I just wanna make love
But ai ai ai ai I don't wanna fall in love

Even if you line up 800 lies
Your fake mask still gets shredded apart
If you fall in love, you lose
If you're seriosu No no no no

In a love that'll make you faint
Feelings are messed up, Hearts are falling apart
Fall in love, happy in love, You accept the challenge
What an easy stupid bait
Swimming through the coming and going days
With a price to pay after all this roundabout
Miraculously bloom a pretty fake rose
High high high

You're beauty queen of love
I'm stupid slave of love
I kiss you on your knees
Let me do what you want
Let me be your toy

Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha
( Baby love you, Love you like an animal)
That's Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha
( Baby love me yeah! I wanna be you're dog)
That's Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha
( Baby love you, Love you like an animal)
That's Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha

Hideto Matsumoto

Sep. 26th, 2006 at 12:01 PM

Pink Spider A tribute to hide 12/13/64 - 5/2/98 This section is dedicated to the late hide (Hideto Matsumoto). hide was born December 13, 1964 in Kanagawa, Yokohama and died on May 2, 1998. He was 33 years old. hide was found hanging from a door in his apartment. Police ruled it a suicide, but family, friends, and fans think otherwise. I read somewhere that his death was an accident. There was no motive or suicide note, so there is not much to go by to believe that it was intentional suicide. It said that the following day there was going to be a concert, with a suicide scene in it, and that hide was only practicing, but he was drunk. He died on the way to the hospital. hide's grave is in Yokosuka, but his ashes were flown over to LA, where they were thrown into the ocean. hide's funeral was on May 7th, and was held in the Hongan temple in Central Chichuji, in Tokyo. hide was in the band X Japan, with Yoshiki, Toshi, Pata, and Heath. He joined in 1987, when Yoshiki called him to ask if he would join. <-Pata, Toshi, Yoshiki, hide, Heath. While in X Japan, hide did some solo work. His first single Hide Your Face came out in 1994, and was very popular. When X Japan disbanded in 1997, hide went on to create a band called Spread Beaver, where he created my favorite song, and the name for this page, Pink Spider. hide may be gone, but he is not forgotten. Forever Love is a song X Japan did, and I see a lot on the internet, this quote "Forever Love, Forever hide". Also, Yoshiki once dedicated the song Tears to his dead father, but then changed it to dedicate hide, after he died. At hide's funeral, Yoshiki was crying and shaking, and could barley talk when he said his speech. This is Yoshiki's speech: "I'm very shocked to hear about his death. I still can't believe what has happened. Right now, he's sleeping with a beautiful face .I tried to wake him up many times, but he's still sleeping. Between the five of us, hide was the one who kept his calm and thought out things. Even though I was the leader, he was the calm one who gave me good advice when I was being short tempered and emotional. Of course with all of that pressure, he too almost lost his identity. But during those hard times, he'd always give me a call. We would talk about X, music, friends, life, fans, almost anything. He was like an older to me and sometimes like a younger brother too. We'd drink together and sometimes fight. But the next day, he'd come to me and say, "Yoshiki, did I do something last night? I'm sorry, I don't remember a thing." But this time, he didn't say anything back to me, sleeping. Too all fans and friends, you must all be confused. I too can not express this sadness in words But we must understand that this is a reality. Everyone please watch over his eternal sleep warmly." X-Japan Leader Yoshiki It's sad. Also, the remaining X Japan band members performed Forever Love, and Scars, which hide wrote, at the funeral. Some interesting facts about hide: hide is always spelt with a lower case "h" a hide museum was opened in June of 2000, spearheaded by the current Prime Minister of Japan, who was a fan of hide and X Japan. hide was friends with Marilyn Manson Pink Spider won the MTV international awards in 1998 hide was nicknamed "Pink Spider" by Yoshiki because he had pink hair. hide's death was featured in TIME Magazine (International version). hide was influenced by KISS His hair was either pink or red, and he was famous because of it. He had a very unique voice. It sounded different to some degree in every song. hide is not pronounced like "hide and seek", it's pronounced "he-day"

Mood: calm

pic's of stuff

Sep. 16th, 2006 at 8:20 AM

Mood: sad

hide's death

Sep. 2nd, 2006 at 2:25 PM

i'm so sad today wen i found out how sad hide's death was it made me cry...i felt so sad i mean i hade none that he died but not such a horrible death i mean it so sad wen i found out that hi's funeral was on tv i just had to go to youtube to see it it was so sad....Death

hide died on May 2, 1998. A roommate put hide down in bed after a night of drinking, but when she went to check on him an hour later, he was not in his room. hide was found hanged with a ripped towel in his apartment bathroom, the towel wrapped around (or tied) to the doorknob. He was barely alive when the ambulance arrived, and later died in the hospital. hide was 33 years old.
There is much debate as to the true nature of hide’s death. Some say it was an accidental death, explaining that he was drunk; hide left no suicide note. Others cite the suicide of INXS lead singer Michael Hutchence, who was reputed to have died from hanging in an attempt to gratify himself through autoerotic asphyxiation. hide was known for performing stunts in attempts to scare others, and some suspect his death to be a stunt gone wrong. Taiji, who played in X Japan with hide for several years, offered a possible explanation for hide’s death in his book X no Sei to Shi: Uchuu wo Kaeru Tomo e. He explained that after performing shows, the band members would often tie towels around their shoulders and necks to relieve muscle stress. Taiji implies that hide had most likely tied a towel on in such a manner (and one can subsequently assume that he had fallen against the door and was ultimately unable to free himself). Although many fans support Taiji’s suggestion, others have preferred to see hide’s death as a purposeful incident, not wanting to see hide’s death as an accident. These fans have speculated that his song “Pink Spider” was a musical suicide note (the song was hide’s final single and music video released before his passing. It features a woman jumping off a building to her death).
hide’s funeral was held at the Buddhist temple, Tsukiji Hongan-ji, in Tsukiji, Tokyo on May 7th, 1998. Over 70,000 people attended. Streets were closed off, and police had to deploy boats, helicopters, 100 officers, and 170 security guards to the temple to control the emotional crowd. By the end of day, 26 people had been hospitalized for various injuries. There is still a small memorial and guest book at the temple—you can find it on the far left on entering the main hall.
hide’s death and funeral was announced by CNN and other TV channels around the world, despite only being a household name within Japan.
The remaining members of X Japan performed “Forever Love” at the funeral, and the band leader Yoshiki gave a speech. He was crying and shaking so hard that he was struggling to hold onto the paper he had written the speech on. Below is an excerpt:
“I'm very shocked to hear about his death. I still can't believe what has happened. Right now, he's sleeping with a beautiful face. I tried to wake him up many times, but he's still sleeping.
Between the five of us, hide was the one who kept his calm and thought out things. Even though I was the leader, he was the calm one who gave me good advice when I was being short tempered and emotional. Of course with all that pressure, he too almost lost his identity. But during those hard times, he'd always give me a call. We would talk about X, music, friends, life, fans, almost anything. He was like a big brother to me and sometimes like a young brother too. We'd drink together and sometimes fight. But the next day, he'd come to me and say, "Yoshiki, have I done something last night? I'm sorry, I don't remember a thing." But this time, he didn't say anything back to me... sleeping.
To all fans and friends, you must all be confused. I also cannot express this sadness in words, but we must understand and accept this painful reality. Everyone please watch over his eternal sleep warmly”
hide was known to be upbeat, a joker and party-loving, adding to the confusions as to why such a person would choose to escape his problems through suicide....if i ever need to see this...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Exq5bv5fyJo

Mood: sad